As I focused on the solution instead of the problem I was reminded that I had several “victims by choice” that were around me and that rather than take responsibility for their lives these people focus in on me as their “victimizer”. It was difficult to get these people out of my own thinking since their constant negative influence was like having loud music playing in the background. While I didn’t consciously believe their “threats and curses” those false beliefs seemed to find a home in my belief system and it was very distracting to experience the “push against” me with intention from these people. Some of this “push” is what hit my cat Zek since he claims me as belonging to him. He stepped right in the path of this “pushing” from these misguided folks and got sick as a result. In a very real sense, Zek was protecting me and fighting the negative vibration that was being projected by their thinking. Still this negative vibration found a home in me in my thinking and I had to take responsibility for it.
As I continued to pray I felt strongly that I should NOT take Zek to the vet since they would treat his physical symptoms and not deal with the strong negative influences. I also experienced horrible emotions and beliefs that I realized had been passed on to me from other people in my family at an age where I did not understand how to reject them. The Spirit of God instructed me to “repent” or to “think differently” about these thoughts and beliefs. One by one I obeyed His voice and rejected the false beliefs.
The first belief was hopelessness. As I thought differently about this and rejected it, Zek got a little better. The second was helplessness. As I thought differently about this false belief and rejected it, Zek again got little better. With very little sleep, this process went on from Friday afternoon to Sunday morning when Zek emerged from his sickness and wanted me to take several walks with him. He then started drinking water and asking for his favorite treats. When I “repented” or “thought differently” about those negative emotions that were in me―my cat came out from under them and they could no longer affect him.
I am so grateful to God for the wisdom of His Spirit and for true “repentance”. (Zek says he is grateful too…)